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After the "failing myself" domino effect of losing my first love, undergoing hardships adjusting to early adult life outside of college, and mental/physical illness, I moved back home to be with my support system and seek help and heal in the comfort and care of my family. Reflecting back on this difficult time is not easy for me to do as it was my lowest point I have ever been in my life and a never-ending struggle to even get out of bed in the morning and convince myself that my life and I was worth it. However, I realize the purpose to it all now and am willing to open up about it and share. I was always so skeptical of the saying that there’s a reason to everything and now I am a full believer of it. At this point in my life, I refused help and wanted it all to end. Anything to make the pain of everyday life go away; however, choosing recovery has been the BEST thing I have ever done! It brought me straight to God, to my faith, and to find myself. See a couple years ago, I ventured away from my vision board and dream of being a doctor because there was something telling me that I wasn’t good enough or smart enough. After months of treatment, not getting accepted into PA school, and constant depression, I heard the little voice of hope. I fully believe that God put that “healing period” into my journey to redirect my life and make me realize my purpose firsthand. I soon found myself concentrating solely on my relationship with God, as I lost this years before my destruction. Now I couldn’t be more proud of how far I’ve come, how I’ve changed my life around, and the direction I am heading with God along side of me. All the signs have lead me straight to this career choice, even when I had taken wrong turns, God redirected my path and he will continue to be my leader in my future practice.
I’ve told some of my closest friends but now I’m comfortable to tell anyone that wants to listen or know about my story. I feel like social media is all butterflies and happily ever after, but that isn’t reality. Just as you observe your heart beat on the monitor, life is filled with constant ups and downs, different rhythms and speeds. I am open to share my story with anyone because I’ve been there. I’ve had some of the ugliest and scariest days and I am here now—ALIVE! You never know what others are going through and you never know when your story can influence and inspire another or even save their life!
God placed all of these lessons in my life to make me a better person, stronger, and as a tool to help my future patients. I can understand their thoughts and feelings with similar experiences and empathize with them. I will give them hope.
I’ve told some of my closest friends but now I’m comfortable to tell anyone that wants to listen or know about my story. I feel like social media is all butterflies and happily ever after, but that isn’t reality. Just as you observe your heart beat on the monitor, life is filled with constant ups and downs, different rhythms and speeds. I am open to share my story with anyone because I’ve been there. I’ve had some of the ugliest and scariest days and I am here now—ALIVE! You never know what others are going through and you never know when your story can influence and inspire another or even save their life!
God placed all of these lessons in my life to make me a better person, stronger, and as a tool to help my future patients. I can understand their thoughts and feelings with similar experiences and empathize with them. I will give them hope.